શ્રી સદ્‌ગુરુ ભક્તિ રહસ્ય - હે પ્રભુ ! હે પ્રભુ ! શું કહું

નાદબ્રહ્મ પદ - ૮૯૦, પૃષ્ઠ-૬૦४
Nādbrahma pada 890, page 604

હે પ્રભુ !  હે પ્રભુ !  શું કહું, દીનાનાથ દયાળ;
હું તો દોષ અનંતનું, ભાજન છું કરુણાળ  ... ૧
he prabhu !  he prabhu !  shuň kahuň, dina-nāth dayāl;
huň to dosh anaňt-nu, bhājan chhuň karunāl ... 1

શુદ્ધ ભાવ મુજમાં નથી, નથી સર્વ તુજ રૂપ;
નથી લઘુતા કે દીનતા, શું કહું પરમસ્વરૂપ  ... ૨
shuddh bhāv muj-māň nathi, nathi sarva tuj rup;
nathi laghutā ke dinatā, shu kahu param-svarup ... 2

નથી આજ્ઞા ગુરુદેવની, અચળ કરી ઉરમાંહિ;
આપતણો વિશ્વાસ દૃઢ, ને પરમાદર નાંહિ  ... ૩
nathi āgnā guru-dev-ni, achal kari ur-māňhi;
āpatāno vishvās dradh, ne paramādar nāňhi ... 3

જોગ નથી સતસંગનો, નથી સત્‌સેવા વા જોગ;
કેવળ અર્પણતા નથી, નથી આશ્રય અનુયોગ ... ૪
jog nathi sat-saňg-no, nathi sat-sevā vā jog;
keval arpan-tā nathi, nathi āshray anu-yog ... 4

હું પામર શું કરી શકું, એવો નથી વિવેક;
ચરણ શરણ ધીરજ નથી, મરણ સુધીની છેક ... ૫
huň pāmar shuň kari shakuň, evo nathi vivek;
charan sharan dhiraj nathi, maran sudhi-ni chhek ... 5

અચિંત્ય તુજ માહાત્મ્યનો, નથી પ્રફુલ્લિત ભાવ;
અંશ ન એકે સ્નેહનો, ન મળે પરમ પ્રભાવ ... ૬
achiňtya tuj māhātmya-no, nathi praullit bhāv;
aňsh na eke sneh-no, na male param prabhāv ... 6

અચળરૂપ આસક્તિ નહિ, નહીં વિરહનો તાપ;
કથા અલભ્ય તુજ પ્રેમની, નહિ તેનો પરિતાપ ... ૭
achal-rup āsakti nahi, nahi virah-no tāp;
kathā alabhya tuj prem-ni, nahi teno pari-tāp ... 7

ભક્તિમાર્ગ પ્રવેશ નહિ, નહીં ભજન દૃઢ ભાન;
સમજ નહીં નિજ ધર્મની, નહિ શુભ દેશે સ્થાન ... ૮
bhakti-mārg pravesh nahi, nahiň bhajan dradh bhān;
samaj nahiň nij dharma-ni, nahi shubh deshe sthān ... 8

કાળ દોષ કળીથી થયો, નહિ મર્યાદા ધર્મ;
તોયે નહિ વ્યાકુળતા, જુઓ પ્રભુ મુજ કદમ  ... ૯
kāl dosh kali-thi thayo, nahi maryādā dharma;
toye nahi vyākul-tā, ju-o prabhu muj kadam ... 9

સેવાને પ્રતિકુળ જે, તે બંધન નથી ત્યાગ;
દેહેંદ્રિય માને નહીં, કરે બાહ્ય પર રાગ ... ૧૦
sevā-ne prati-kul je, te baňdhan nathi tyāg;
deheňdriya māne nahiň, kare bāhya par rāg ... 10

તુજ વિયોગ સ્ફુરતો નથી, વચન નયન યમ નાંહિ;
નહિ ઉદાસ અનભક્તથી, તેમ ગૃહાદિક માંહિ ... ૧૧
tuj viyog sfur-to nathi, vachan nayan yam nāňhi;
nahi udās an-bhakta-thi, tem gruhā-dik māňhi ... 11

અહંભાવથી રહિત નહિ, સ્વધર્મ સંચય નાંહિ;
નથી નિવૃતિ નિર્મળપણે, અન્ય ધર્મની કાંઈ ... ૧૨
ahambhāv-thi rahit nahi, sva-dharma saňchay nāhi;
nathi nivruti nirmal-pane, anya dharma-ni kāň-ii ... 12

એમ અનંત પ્રકારથી, સાધન રહિત હુંય;
નહીં એક સદ્‌ગુણ પણ, મુખ બતાવું શુંય  ? ... ૧૩
em anaňt prakār-thi, sādhan rahit huňy;
nahiň ek sad-gun pan, mukh batāvu shuňy ?  ... 13

કેવળ કરુણામૂર્તિ છો, દીનબંધુ દીનાનાથ;
પાપી પરમ અનાથ છું, ગ્રહો પ્રભુજી હાથ ... ૧૪
keval karunā-murti chho, din-baňdhu dinā-nātha;
pāpi param anāth chhuň, graho prabhu-ji hāth ... 14

અનંત કાળથી આથડ્યો, વિના ભાન ભગવાન;
સેવ્યા નહિ ગુરુ સંતને, મૂક્યું નહિ અભિમાન ... ૧૫
anaňt kāl-thi āthadyo, vinā bhān bhag-vān;
sevyā nahi guru sāňt-ne, mukyu nahi abhi-mān ... 15

સંતચરણ આશ્રય વિના, સાધન કર્યા અનેક;
પાર ન તેથી પામિયો, ઉગ્યો ન અંશ વિવેક ... ૧૬
saňt-charan āshray vinā, sādhan karya anek;
pār na tethi pāmiyo, ugyo na aňsh vivek ... 16

સહુ સાધન બંધન થયા, રહ્યો ન કોઈ ઉપાય;
સત્‌સાધન સમજ્યો નહીં, ત્યાં બંધન શું જાય ? ... ૧૭
sahu sādhan baňdhan thayā, raho na ko-ii upāy;
sat-sādhan samajyo nahiň, tyāň baňdhan shuň jāy ?  ... 17

પ્રભુ પ્રભુ લય લાગી નહીં, પડ્યો ન સદ્‌ગુરુ પાર
દીઠા નહિ નિજ દોષ તો, તરીએ કોણ ઉપાય ? ... ૧૮
prabhu prabhu lay lāgi nahiň, padyo na sad-guru pār;
dithā nahi nij dosh to, tari-e kon upāy ?  ... 18

અધમાધમ અધિકો પતિત, સકળ જગતમાં હુંય ?
એ નિશ્ચય આવ્યા વિના, સાધન કરશે શુંય ? ... ૧૯
adhamādham adhiko patit, sakal jagat-māň huňy ?
e nishchay āvyā vinā, sādhan kar-she shuňy ?  ... 19

પડી પડી તુજ પદ પંકજે, ફરી ફરી માગું એ જ;
સદ્‌ગુરૂ સંત સ્વરૂપ તુજ, એ દૃઢતા કરી દે જ ... ૨૦
padi padi tuj pad paňkaje, fari fari māguň e ja;
sad-guru saňt svarup tuj, e dradhatā kari de ja ... 20

English translation (by AI):
This prayer by Shrimad Rajchandraji is a profound expression of deep humility, acknowledging one's faults and spiritual emptiness while pleading for divine grace. It emphasizes the necessity of total surrender, the guidance of a true Master, and the need to recognize one's own shortcomings to progress on the path of liberation.

1. O Lord! O Lord! What can I say? You are the savior of the meek, so kind;
While I am a vessel of endless flaws, of a deeply fallen mind.

2. No pure devotion dwells in me, nor do I see Your form in all I view;
I lack true humility, I lack meekness—what can I say, O Divine and True?

3. The Master's words and holy commands, I have not locked unshakeable within;
I hold no steady, unwavering faith, nor supreme reverence to wash my sin.

4. I have not found the holy company, nor served the truth as a seeker must;
I lack total, absolute surrender, and the shelter of an aligned, sacred trust.

5. So helpless am I, what can I do? I lack the wisdom to choose the right;
To rest at Your feet till my final breath, I lack the patience and inner might.

6. My heart blooms not with joyful awe when I witness Your glory so divine;
Not even a tiny spark of love, nor Your supreme grace, can I call mine.

7. I feel no unshakeable attachment to You, nor do I burn with the pain of separation;
The rare story of Your divine love remains out of reach, yet I feel no tribulation.

8. I have not even entered the path of devotion, nor do I pray with true awareness;
I have no understanding of my true spiritual duty, nor do I dwell in a place of pure goodness.

9. The dark flaws of this age have corrupted me, breaking every sacred boundary of religion;
Yet, look at my actions, O Lord! I feel no anxiety, no distress over my condition.

10. Those very bonds that oppose Your service are the ones I fail to cast aside;
My body and senses refuse to obey, as they chase external attachments with pride.

11. I never feel the agonizing pain of Your absence; neither my words nor eyes reveal such a plea;
I feel no detachment from those who lack faith, nor from my own home and family.

12. I am far from being free of my ego, and I have gathered no wealth of spiritual practice;
I have not attained the pure state of renunciation, nor any true virtues to practice.

13. In countless ways like these, I remain completely empty of any spiritual means;
I possess not a single true virtue within—with what face can I appear before Your screens?

14. You are the absolute embodiment of compassion, the brother and protector of the helpless soul;
I am a supreme sinner, entirely orphaned—O Lord, please take my hand and make me whole.

15. For endless lifetimes I have wandered blindly, without any awareness of You, my Divine Lord;
I never served the true Saints or Masters, nor did I ever drop my prideful sword.

16. Without taking absolute refuge at the feet of the Saints, I performed countless empty rituals;
Yet I never reached the shore of liberation, nor did a single drop of true wisdom become habitual.

17. All my spiritual efforts became new chains of bondage, leaving me with no way out of this maze;
I failed to understand the true path of practice, so how could my attachments ever dissolve in its blaze?

18. I never developed a deep absorption in Your name, nor did I cross to the other shore with the True Guide;
Since I could not see my own inner faults, by what other means could I ever stem the tide?

19. I am the lowest of the low, the most fallen soul in this entire vast creation;
Until this absolute truth dawns upon my heart, what value can any spiritual practice have for my salvation?

20. Falling repeatedly at Your lotus feet, this is the one and only boon I beg of You over and over;
Grant me that unwavering conviction to see You and the True Master as one, forever and ever.

...

The Core Spiritual Meaning
The core meaning of this entire prayer is radical self-honesty as the ultimate gateway to spiritual awakening. Shrimad Rajchandraji is not merely venting guilt; he is demonstrating the deep Jain concept of Alochana (pure, objective self-examination) and Bhav-Shatru (identifying inner flaws as the only true enemies). 
True spiritual growth cannot begin until you strip away all ego and face your internal reality exactly as it is [not available].

Key Spiritual Themes Broken Down

1. The Trap of "Empty Rituals" (Stanzas 3, 16 & 17)

• The Illusion: You can perform thousands of religious rituals, read scriptures, and follow rules, but if your ego remains intact, those very practices become a spiritual trap ("All my spiritual efforts became new chains of bondage").
• The Truth: External rituals are useless without internal transformation. True religion is an internal shift, not a collection of outward performances.

2. The Mirror of the Most Fallen (Stanzas 1, 13 & 19)

• The Illusion: Believing "I am a good, religious person because I pray."
• The Truth: Stanza 19 is the psychological climax of the prayer. Shrimadji states that unless you truly realize you are the "lowest of the low" (in terms of spiritual awareness), your ego will hijack your spiritual practices. True progress begins from absolute zero—total humility. 

3. The Absolute Necessity of a Guide (Stanzas 15, 16 & 20)

• The Illusion: Navigating the labyrinth of human delusion and karma entirely on your own.
• The Truth: You cannot see your own blind spots. The prayer stresses that a living, enlightened spiritual master (Sadguru) is indispensable. The final goal of the seeker is to see no difference between the ultimate Divine Consciousness and the spiritual Master who guides them there.

4. The Shift from Worldly Attachments to Divine Separation (Stanzas 7, 10 & 11)

• The Illusion: Being deeply affected by worldly gains, losses, family, and comfort, while feeling completely indifferent to your soul’s stagnation.
• The Truth: A true seeker shifts their emotional intensity. Shrimadji laments that he doesn't feel the "pain of separation" from the Divine. The core message is to stop weeping over worldly losses and start weeping for your own liberation.

Summary: The Ultimate Message
This prayer is the blueprint for shattering the ego. It teaches you that you cannot heal a wound you refuse to look at. By laying bare every possible spiritual failure—lack of love, lack of focus, lack of discipline—the seeker is completely emptied of pride. It is only when the cup of the ego is completely emptied that divine grace and true wisdom can finally fill it.